Tuesday, September 01, 2009


Saturday was the 10 year anniversary of my brother Tommy's angel day. It really hit me a lot harder than I expected it to. I had already planned a day with friends in hopes of staying busy. Busy I stayed. I even learned to make a crocheted dish cloth. Ya'll better watch out!!!

Throughout the day a memory would hit me so very hard. I remember one of the hardest times of my life was when he moved to Florida. I thought I would literally die. I missed him so very much. Little did I know what truly missing someone was all about.

I hear his voice in my head and it's like he is right here with me. I can can feel him hug me and my heart hurts. I long for him to know my children cause he would love them so very much! He would surely be competing with my brother Bryant to see who could come and see them the most.

One example for you to know how very much he loved me and loved my children happened right after Michala was diagnosed with cancer. He had just gotten the motorcycle he had always dreamed of. It meant so very much to him and he was so very proud of it. Then Michala was diagnosed. He told my mom he wanted to sale his motorcycle and give us the money to help pay for her medical bills. She told him absolutely not because I would be very upset if he did that and be very sad that he had given it up. The next year we had Michala's celebration of life service and that was the last time I saw him. He died the next weekend.

I still hear him and see him in the spitting image that his son Dylan is of him. I still know his sweet caring heart in his dear daughter Shelby. I am so very thankful his legacy lives on through them. Thanks ya'll for making him proud!

This is one of those things in life that I still don't understand. The only thing I can see is that God needed an exceptional angel there with Him because Tommy was definitely that.

Thank you so much for the words of comfort and prayers that some of you extended to me on Saturday. They meant so very much. Thanks to those of you that asked about him and wanted to hear my stories and memories of him. It was so nice to share with ya'll.

I hope that each of you continue to make wonderful memories to hold on to with your family & friends. I have attached one of my favorite pictures of Tommy. He is fishing with his daughter Shelby.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...


My heart goes out to you on the Anniversay of your brothers Angel Day. Aug. 25th was my brother's 15th Anniversay of his Angel day, along with my sister's birthday. I too believe that God needed him very badly in heaven to help with some of the children. He too was wonderful with with the kids.

God Bless you and trust his plans and one day all will be a family again.