Thursday, March 29, 2007

My Heart Time

It's 1:00 AM. This is my time to think, reflect and just really deal with my heart. This week has been WOW! What a rollercoaster.

Yesterday my friend died. She had been battling the ugly "C" word for years. She was our honorary chair for our Relay For Life this year. Tonight was visitation. The line poured out the funeral home doors and down the side walk of our little town. Along with all those hometown folk came so much love and admiration. Cindy's mom said Kelli she didn't have any friends. We kind of snickered and said no she didn't. The wait to visit with the family was over an hour. As we stood in line you could hear people telling stories and reminiscing about Cindy. What a truly amazing woman she is. I am sure by now she is no longer a member of Heaven's choir but leading it. As tears flowed down my face the other day as Cindy's sister in law Pam was telling me that she had just died, Pam said Cindy has been working towards this day all her life. She truly was. Each day, each step she was headed in the right direction. God was perfecting her more and more each day.

As I visited with Mr. Sammy, Cindy's daddy my heart filled more and more. He told stories of my daddy. I could have sat there all day and listened. As he talked I could see my daddy's smile, smell him, feel his loving embrace like a teddy bear and hear that voice. Mr. Sammy would be talking away and then stop and say you remember that. Oh what a feeling.

As I was sitting here I began thinking of Tristan. Many of ya'll remember Tristan. Saturday will be the second anniversary of his death. His mom told me that they call it his Feast Day. I had never heard of that before so I began looking it up. I made them a Feast Day card in honor of Tristan's Feast Day. I assume that's the right thing to do because I found Feast Day cards online. I am sure by now Kathleen is used to my ignorance and know that I meant it in love. Recently Mary Elizabeth has started crossing her legs the way Tristan used to. It's so wonderful to see quiet gently reminders of him. I wanted to take the time to give them a reminder that he is not forgotten.

Back to dealing with my heart. Twice recently I have been reminded that I have the type of heart I have for a reason. I just wish it wasn't so tender and didn't hurt so much. They say I have the gift of empathy. I cannot remember the quote exactly but it's something tis better to have loved and lost than never love at all. Is that right? Well ya'll know what I mean.

Well it's really late now. I am not sure any of this post made sense but it helped to be able to share my heart. Honestly I will try to do better about updating my blog.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Cyndi

OK I was prepared to write a long wonderful post about this. I will have to say that Cyndi and I truly do have an amazing friendship. It's truly blessed by God. They just fit here. It's a true friendship when you don't have to work so hard at it. No Cyndi I still haven't taken your pictures yet. I will get them done though. I promise. Her scrapbooking techniques can be quite annoying because she actually puts pictures on the pages AND within a resonable amount of time. How sick is that.

Cyndi has done such a wonderful job detailing our visit that I will just send you to her blog. She added some really nice comments about me too. Those that know me well please do not tell her any different. She will find out soon enough. LOL!!! Cyndi's blog.

Friday, March 16, 2007

Michala is joining the circus!


I know as ya'll read the subject of this post ya'll were thinking Michala has the opportunity to be part of Camp Sunshine Day at Big Apple Circus or maybe even a special part in the Shrine Circus. Well no not really. Those of you that already know this story bare with me or just hit delete.

Monday night I was at my Relay For Life meeting. My cell phone rings. It said home. Well we never call each other in situations like that unless it's very important or an emergency. My heart skipped. When I answered it Mike said you need to come out of your meeting. Everything and anything flashed through my mind. I will start by telling you what I think Mike should have told me first - Everyone is ok. VERY important! Instead he skips that part.

Mike says, Marlee Anne comes running in the den laughing telling me to come see Michala. He walks into the dining room and Michala is on top of the dining room table swinging from the chandelier. Not hanging from it swinging from it. Mike was still laughing when he called me. He said he wish he had the camera near by to take a picture for Shriners Hospital. Of course I am thinking what a neat scrapbook page that would make.

We will soon be having a going away party for Michala as she goes to join the circus.