Thursday, March 27, 2008

My battle

Man tonight I am holding Abe and typing this. I have a battle raging from within me. Yes today has been a wonderful day but still the anger rises. I honestly do not believe that I am above this. I do not believe it should happen to someone else. I just do not want it happening to me. I feel like God is picking on me. Why me? Better yet Why Not Me? I am having a hard time accepting the fact that the one that allowed this to come into my life is also the ONLY one that can carry me through this. Because of that I will depend on Him. I will count on Him to carry me through because over the past 6 weeks, yes Abe is 6 weeks old today, I have come to realize that no matter how mad I get at God He is going to continue to be there to carry me through this. No Matter What I WILL give Him the praise.

4 comments:

Disney Scrapper said...

That's My girl. Just keep "standing"...No Matter What. Love you,
Cyndi

Martie said...

Please remember we are praying for you and we love you and your family dearly...no matter what happens!
Love you,
Your Sister-n-Christ,
Martie

Jen said...
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Jen said...

Praying for you all. Here's some Truth from Isaiah 61:
In the Lord’s name we will bind up the brokenhearted,
and proclaim freedom for the captives
We will release the prisoners from darkness
and proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor…
The Lord will comfort all who mourn…
and bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair