Need to share

Ya'll I haven't shared these feelings because I thought they would pass quickly as they usually do. I think they are lingering because I have been so sick & I am exhausted. 

Anyway I have this heavy on my heart feeling the older I get about taking care of my children in later years. Then I worry about what will happen to them if something happens to Mike & I. 

I know without a doubt that God has this under control. It's all part of His plan but sometimes, like now it's hard to let go. It's overwhelming to think of taking care of 3 children with extensive medical issues who are completely dependent as we get older & they grow. 

I try hard not to dwell on it & most times if it comes to mind it does pass quickly. I thought maybe sharing my thoughts & feelings might help them pass & get off my mind. 

This is lots of rambling because I can not get my thoughts in order. I think I need to sleep.