Praise You In The Storm

OK I have no idea what happened to this post. Jessica can tell you that it really was here at one time. I basically wanted to share this song with you and have posted the lyrics at the bottom.

Abe was admitted to Egleston when he was 2 days old. The next day Mike was driving up to the hospital listening to a CD Kim had made for him. He told me about the Casting Crowns song Praise You In The Storm. Yesterday while we were going over records for his surgery it was really hard for me to re-live those first 5 weeks of Abe's life while we lived at Egleston. When she asked if genetics suspected a mitochondrial disease my heart stopped, yet some how I got out the word yes. When she asked if he had delayed development I thought you can tell that from where you are sitting without even examining him. Still I smiled and said yes.

On the way home as I cried I listened to this song. The first words are, "I thought by now you would have reached down and wiped away our tears". Instead I realized my tears continue to flow. It's still raining. Most times I hide the battle that rages within me. Fighting to get through each day. So ready for the rain to end. I will continue to praise HIM in this storm. I have learned over the past 15 years how to grieve. I know the stages. For some reason this stage is lasting longer. I know I have been here before. I have made it through once, no twice, no more times than that. I will make it through again.

I think I have shared this before but sometimes it makes me so mad that the one person who has allowed this in my life is the ONLY person that can get me through it. For that I am thankful. For that I give God the praise.

Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus